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Post by Admin on Aug 31, 2018 19:22:23 GMT
You sound down. Is it your regular response to bursts of creative energy? Or something else. I've done nothing but sleep today. My Meniere's disease flared up and I took medication last night. Now, I can't seem to shake it.
You've been busy for a long time this summer. You might need to take a day or two and just rest. The hardest part about doing that is overcoming the inertia when its time to get back to work.
Joshua has been running a fever and throwing up. He seems better today but I canceled the tutor anyway. I can't keep my eyes open and Joshua needs time to start eating and sleeping normally again.
Fall is hard. Mom's birthday would have been yesterday so that might be contributing to my tiredness. I will post an update about Medium and Patreon tomorrow. The first of the month is supposed to be payday on Patreon. I'll see. Medium seems to be a possible market IF the work can be consistently posted. When I started posting articles to it, the first thing I thought of was your newspaper articles. You could take them, flesh them out because the word restriction is gone, make sure they are as tight as you can make them, and post them. I think an inspirational/Christian market would do well.
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Post by bill on Sept 2, 2018 23:28:01 GMT
I suppose I'm going through my normal bouts of doubt as a writer. I've noticed I have a harder time getting excited, about anything. This week I had a lot to get excited about, but it didn't happen. Quite the contrary, I feel scared and ill-prepared to continue this journey.
Thursday was the day, and I was consumed by fear instead of excitement. I accepted a full-time position with the newspaper. I know it's the right decision. I've prayed and thought about it for months. But everything within me screams train wreck. It's a complete step of faith and I am pushing through my emotions. Also on Thursday I received proof copies of all four books in my Vetrix series and Mom's Ghosts in the Quarry. I need these books to start selling to supplement my income (and I need to find other sources of income like Medium), but I don't have confidence it will happen.
Oh, I'll push through, and hopefully my emotions will regulate to where they should be, but it would be nice to respond emotionally to something like I think I should. It just never seems to be the case.
I gave my two week notice on Tuesday and still no one has said anything to me. I can't even get excited about leaving the job I hate because it feels like it's been nothing but a burden and disaster. I don't understand why I'm not excited. I've dreamt of this day for nearly a year.
Anyhow, I have a three day weekend without much going on, so I've been writing, sleeping, and piddling away the time more than I would like. But hopefully I'm be refreshed a bit also.
Blake's had stomache issues on and off for three weeks now. I'm getting worried, and want to get him to a doctor. It just doesn't seem reasonable for it to last this long.
I'm sorry to hear about Josh. I hope him and Blake both bounce back and quit giving us additional reasons to worry.
Thank you for asking. Sorry to ramble. Maybe I needed to though.
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Post by Admin on Sept 3, 2018 0:31:58 GMT
Walking in faith is the hardest life lesson to learn. Especially in our family. We were raised to take care of problems. To never give up. To face what life throws at us and battle through. But God wants all of us and that includes the fears, and the trust. My total income from both Patreon and Medium for this month, and Medium has only had about two weeks, is $12.03. That's not enough except its money coming toward me and not away from me. I do like the both of those venue pay faster than magazine, or books. So I'm thinking spreading out the income streams is helpful. I also like that both venues are passive income streams. Once the work is on there, we forget its there and let it ride.
I don't know about health issues. I don't think I've even had a time in my life that somebody wasn't dealing with something. Our family seems to be plagued with digestive issues. It runs in the family.
I'm glad you are leaving a job you hate. Glad you are taking a job in a field you are working toward. I don't have a crystal ball. I just know that everything happens for a reason and timing is everything.
Being a writer is very different from dreaming of being a writer. As in everything, the craft requires discipline and discipline isn't always fun. It can be satisfying but, as in anything, a certain amount of drudgery happens. I've figured out that one reason I have so much trouble getting a finished work to the editor is all the typing involved. It's not fun. Its boring. Boring, or not, it has to be done. I need to stop putting blocks in front of it and just get it done.
I'm always close by. I love you dearly, and if you ever need me, just text me and I'll be available.
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Post by bill on Sept 4, 2018 2:53:51 GMT
Thank you!
I know most of my emotional energy lately has been sucked away by my job. I feel like I have failed miserably, but I know it's just a case of a bad fit. I think once I am away from it I will begin to normalize. I sure hope so anyway.
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Post by Admin on Sept 4, 2018 3:39:31 GMT
It can't hurt.
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